Anyeonghaseyo!

你好！好久不见，我又上来了！本来是没什么心情上来post的，不过昨天听到有人叫我update，加上我又发现了新的观众原来有在看我的部落格，所以今天心情特好，想必灯下应该有很多长篇大论迎接你们吧。

嗯，就从那天说起吧！对！就是那天，如果你跟我同校、又有缘地跟我同年，你就会知道那天，我们学校举办了一个English Performance for Junior Middle Three Students。原本我并没有什么兴趣参加，因为毕竟这种东西离我太遥远了。不过后来我有一个新想法，就是可以在我的初三生涯结束以前跟朋友知己们做一件从未做过的事！所以在截止日期的前一分钟，我匆匆地拉着思玄和乐颖陪我一起参加，完成这项壮举！Woohoo~想法是很好啦！起初我们也很开心，但之后。。。

中间那段，不是很方便写出来。不想人家说我故意找架来吵，让某些人能够趁机装可怜，博取同情，所以天知，我知就好了，你不需知！xD

终于到了那一天！有些紧张，很久没有上台表演的我对舞台是那么地陌生。不过，看着我那四个好伙伴，我决定跟他们一起玩，享受那一刻。虽然彩排时错漏百出，舞步跟不上，钢琴又频频出错，但是，到了正式的那一刻，我觉得有没有错误已经不再是问题，我只知道，我们已经很成功了，比起那些根本没有勇气上台的朋友，比起那些只会在旁喝倒彩的朋友，比起那些觉得我们不会跳舞却在那边乱摆乱跳的朋友，我觉得我们已经很强了！Yeah!

而且从上次的表演，我也学会了很多东西，因为自告奋勇的我要求了当司仪的机会，这可是我梦寐以求的，不想再错过这个机会，那一次，虽然我并没有作得很好，但是我学会了怎样跟参赛者沟通，我学会怎样跟做音响的学兄配合，我学会怎样反应变快，当然我也学会就算同学们已经下课，或全部已经去看日本学生了没人看也要坚持、用心地主持下去。所以我很开心，自己终于有勇气、主动地要求我想做的，因为我又忘我的目标跨了一步，就算只是一小步，也好过我停留原地，不是吗？当然在主持的时候也有些令我非常气愤的东西，不过我是怎么安慰我自己的？她这样突然跑掉，是他吃亏，因为他没有学到我学到的东西 :)

过了这一天，回到家，躺在床上，我真的觉得我参加这次的表演是很值得的，因为我真的学到很多东西，我学会如何去接受一些非如我所愿的事情，配合大家，甚至是在一个团体里面如何生活。总而言之，这是非常有意义的一天。还有，这是我初三生涯一个很好的纪念，和朋友们的纪念，我总算达成了我最当初打算参加的目标和愿望。

Cheers :)

Today is a great day :)

I went to my secret place.

And i feel recharged and energetic after going there...always :)

That's what i love about that place.

It's my domain...haha XD

Well, my holiday journey has started.

And I am going through my holiday plans!!!

Woohoo~~

SPRINT!!!!!

Dudes, have you planned for your holidays???

Don't wait for any longer

Don't make yourself regret AGAIN...(like me)

So, get up and muster up your courage and do everything you desire at the bottom of your heart

Yay!!!

One more important thing I must settle it today.

Yes.

I don't wanna get entangled in this dilemma anymore...

Set me free :)

I don't wanna care whether i am alone or not anymore....

I don't want this nightmare to bother me anymore...

I believe my choice to leave is the best solution...

Just 2 weeks more to go...

It's okay to be alone.

Only 2 weeks.

I believe I can get over it.

Yay!!

Done :)

Everything will be back to normal and let's shout out!

It's our holidays NOW!!!!

Don't waste your time anymore!!!

Achieve your goal and pursue your dream now!!

Gambateh!! :D

Indifference

Woohoo

The exams are over!

I think my attitude towards PMR exam is much better than UEC

Cause

Something extraordinary has been full-filling my mind after my PMR exam

That's

I hope to change into a new school

Yea...

But hope is just a hope.

I don't feel regret for not studying properly and hard for the UEC exam however

I guess this is not me.

I used to treat my result as the most important thing in the world...

and now I am really tired for that.

I guess I am just not good enough....it's already 9 years...

9 years... I haven't had reached the 1st place in the school neither in the class...

2nd or 3rd?? it has never been me...

Haiz...

so, i think i just no need to use my result as to evaluate myself....

Maybe i can do better in other things or whatever

I just wanna be happy and be myself.

And most important thing which i realize now is...

I want to lead a wonderful life...

I am not a "exam or test machine"

But still i can pass all the exams with flying colors...

I can handle my studies smart.

This is what i hope right now

That's why i think of changing into a new school

 a new environment

I hope to start things all over again.

So.

I am sure i won't be sad or down if i can't score full A

This is what i promise to myself.

It's already November and

I am planning how to spend my holidays.

I hope someone could hire me too ****

hehex

Oh,

hang out with my Star Gang yesterday

Yea... star gang

><"

had lots of fun with them...

Bought a bag with my bosom friend

Same style....just different color.

I wanna tell her that

It's the best bag i have ever bought not because the bag is the prettiest...

it's because is she who accompany me to buy it

So thanks.

I am sure I will miss my dearest friends.

Form three is a really unforgettable one

sweet, salty, sour or bitter...

I tasted every bit of it just in a year.

This may be the happiest year to me

I hope to lock those sweet memories up

But this may also be the most unhappy year to me

I hope those sad and awful memories will be deleted permanently from my mind

So...

It's a meaningful year

I learnt much from it

But however

I hope to leave

And I am sure i won't forget them

my fellows

especially Elaine Chan

She affects me the most

I hope our bond wouldn't be cut.

And both of us will be back to the beginning

That's the dream i hope most to be realized.

Yay!

:)

Finally and finally

Finally......
I get what i've longing for...
Yes...
Iphone 4!!!!!!!!

I bought it on Monday
..
..
..but now i still can't manage how to connect pc with iTunes...

Totally a nerd.

Asking my friend who is a tech expert.

Anyway...

iPhone 4 is great :)

Most of my friends get curious about why don't i just wait for iPhone 5??

This is a good question, but...

no reason larh~~~

A small bad effect after i own this beautiful creature is.....

I just keep tapping on it and...yes...i have to admit that i have my study thrown out...ok...just a lil' bit..cuz at least my sejarah still remain A (but from 90 to 84...) and my science...stays good like never before...haha xD

(Actually it's a big bad effect...as far as my mum have known nothing abt it...this is still a small case...hehe)

Ok...stop "showing off" and now...

I have to face a terrible fact

PMR TRIAL IS COMING SOOOOOO SOON...

and to make it worst...

I HAVE PREPARE NOTHING YET

omg~~~

I don't hope God to bless me this stupid lazy nerd before i study anything yet

I hope to get back to my study condition as fast as possible and then God, you may, please bless me for not dying too badly in the trial....you know...Actually trial exam should be the most difficult and bloody scary exam...because the teachers' aim is to kill students mercilessly....

Ok, done. Got back to work.. See yea ;)

呕心沥血之作？XD

哈咯~~今天超兴奋的叻。。。超有成就感！！因为我花了两天时间完成了两幅画~~~我的第一次！哈哈~~想知道我画得怎样？？？请不要眨眼睛哦！！哈哈~~

嗯。。希望你不会cheh我啦。。因为其实如果对有学的人来说，这两张其实很简单，但，对我这个初学者来说一点都不简单哦！！！！不过，这里头还是有老师的画迹。。哈哈~~就是那个水的地方和椰叶咯。。难度又点高，要老师帮一点。。然后自己再跟着画的。。。我比较喜欢右手那张，那张比较难。。但我会比较珍稀左边那张，因为那张是我全部自己画的。。哈哈XD

其实上次也有画过一张，不过那张是拿来交功课的。。已经交上去了。。那张我超喜欢的。。

呵呵~~ XD

做自己喜欢做的事是一件很幸福的事 :)

在找着看看年尾有什么camp,如果没有去毕旅的话也许我会考虑去camp. xD

昨天只是动了science作业。。有点难。。背来背去背不进脑。。为什么男生的生殖器官要这么复杂？？zzz...又testes 又penis...说真的，我到现在还分不清哪个是睾丸，哪个是阴茎。。alamak~~!

还有华语。。成语真的有点难度，尤其是我这么迟才读。。76~100叻。。。咳，还是赶快去读吧！！

嗯。。还有。。这里要介绍我的读者们一个网站：

http://www.lumosity.com/brain-games

brain games...对咯。。就是要考你IQ的游戏。。真的很不错，玩了有一点清醒到。。
不过它只给你玩一些比较basic的。。你还要更好的就要付钱。。不过我觉得它basic的也很不错。。有speed的。。有memory的。。有flexibility的。。有attention...得空可以去玩一下。。刺激一下脑细胞。。我觉得比种菜更好玩咯。。哈哈~~

分享完毕。。去读书咯。。掰！ XD

恢复状态 :)

最后，我从这件事中领悟到的结论是：

1) 除了家人，没有任何一个人值得你毫无保留的信任。


2) 经一事，长一智。也该好好想想为什么自己的人缘那么不好。应该要好好反省。不过绝对不是郑豪好，因为他是一个没有理由也可以直接不爽你的人，我见识过很多次了，所以他的不爽，我绝对不会那么笨地去介意。:)


3) 学业才是中学生涯中要追求的东西，最美好的回忆也许只是一张漂亮的成绩和毕业证书。好好读书吧~

拿得起，放得下。只要我把它当成我生命中的0.1%，无论是他，她还是它，也决定不了我的现在和未来。

所以我不会刻意去挽留我们的友情，勉强没有幸福，顺其自然吧，我们都没有为对方存活的意义，我是我，你是你。

我还有99.9%的生活等着我去细细品味

再来，我要终结这件事对我的极大影响和打击。The terminator. :)

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好，接下来，我要重整一下我的生活

待会儿我会去学画画。有点小兴奋。画画真的可以陶冶性情，把烦恼搁置。有些事真的要亲自实践后才能体验出这种感觉。

然后，我会去学钢琴，（之前我学的是electone,电子钢琴，不过到了grade7就停了）很可惜对不对，当时的我，是如此的固执。我妈妈一直鼓励我继续学，但我想要先培养回我对音乐的兴趣，我想先从piano学起，然后再回到electone,因为，只要你学会钢琴，就能够掌握electone.(前辈说的）不过我相信起步应该不会很难，因为我之前有底。所以，希望一切顺利。:)

学业上，我也要改变一下自己的方式。我现在看回初二的辅导课本，其实抱着正面的态度去看，真的对学业有很大帮助。只要有恒心，不要三分钟热度，我觉得我能够达到自己的目标。

然后，我决定要花多一点时间跟家人好好相处。:D

至于辩论，我暂时还没有找到自己的定位和目标，也许是人与人之间的关系，或者是我自己失去了热枕，我觉得那里有点冰冷。不过，再看看吧，我还需要时间。星期日的比赛我应该是不能去看了。。。

至于一个蛮重要的问题，到底我去不去毕旅。。这还是个很大的问号。让我考虑的原因很多，第一个是伴侣（心理因素问题）第二个是价钱（外在因素问题）。其实我觉得400多（三天两夜）已经是蛮贵了的，但我还可以去，但现在同学们说要四天三夜，最少要500块，我觉得有点夸张。或许有些人的家境很富裕，他们不介意这小小钱，但是我觉得应该顾虑到其他人咯，因为毕旅是大家一起去储存美好回忆，既然是需要大家，那为什么不想想大家都能配合的要求和环境呢？？妈妈说，如果要去，就他只出100块，剩下的我自己负责，400块，我4个月的零用钱，我还不会赚钱啊。。。不过，为了不要让自己的初三生涯少了那么一些美好的珍贵回忆，我还在考虑考虑。我希望同学能够回心转意，3天2夜其实也很不错嘛。。

很开心自己能够恢复状态，还能够想出一些其他困扰了我很久的问题的解决方法，还立志了一些新目标，可见，那0.1%并没有成为我继续前进的障碍，我希望自己能够保持这种想法，不要老是为了一些不值得的人、事、物伤心流泪。

加油吧~

Exhausted

Run Run Run!!!! 

我们学校举办了两年一次的越野赛跑（我想很多地方今天也有举办，好像是为了配合纳吉的一个马来西亚，也不知道是做什么的）at the lake beside MRR2

Somehow i participate and I have no idea how vast is the lake. 4.5km, about 12 laps in our school. Jesus...4 laps in the school already enough to get my dizzy. 12 laps.........I think i am brave enough. :/

Anyway, once you participate, you just can't absent and you are not allowed to give up on the halfway, not if you are sick or hurt. So, i decide to jog only with Lock Ying. I am sure that I am not able to do this. I AM NOT SPORTY :S

The lake is unexpectedly vast, we have a long long journey. The limited time is 35 minutes and we reached the end point in 45 minutes. I think we are great, from a non-sporty point of view. ha! I am regret that i didn't practise well yesterday and now I am getting through the muscles aches, especially my feet. Oh my...I nearly fainted after finishing this. Dizzzy :S

The cheerleaders competition are not as amazing as I expected.Alas, I have nothing to say about this. 

Then, It's time to announce the result!!!! Hurray~~~

And here, I wanna say something to TANG AN SHI

Hey, congratulations!!!! you are the CHAMPION!!!!

How can you do it???? Oh my God, you are sooooo GREAT~~~

:D

Yea, she is the champion.

I am so proud of her :)

The red team should be grateful to have An Shi in their team.

She is always cheerful and playful and she has a lot of positive energy. Be with her, you will never get depressed. :) 

I am proud to say that she is my friend!!! My ex-classmate...

Orange didn't seem many in the winners group. But that doesn't mean that orange is weak.

Because, Orange won the group award!!!!! The champion group. I was really really astonished. I NEVER expected that my group will win it. I thought it will be red or purple or yellow, not us. Woohooo~~

Actually we won just because we have a lot lot lot more people took part today. The more members take part, the more marks you earn for the group. Maybe we are not really good at running, but we have a lot of members take part. ha! XD 

I am really exhausted but still I am watching pps ( 偷心大圣ps男) at 11:55pm now. See yea :)